Posted by Dinah Seeks Support on March 10, 2014, at 19:28:32
In reply to Re: He's not dying » Dinah Seeks Support, posted by Twinleaf on March 10, 2014, at 18:53:18
I'm actually surprisingly buoyant. Don't ask me why. Something about the way she answered allowed me to create an entire believable scenario that suits my mind quite well. Even if I've made it entirely up, it makes me feel less rejected. Even if I think it's unforgivable not to make "not dying" clear from the start.
Or maybe I'm just glad he's not dying and is probably not grievously ill, not physically or terminally at least. He may be flawed as a therapist-mommy, but I didn't want to think he was dying. He may have hurt me over and over again, but I do dearly love him.
This might be the giddy relief to hear he's not dying, and I may feel bitter in an hour or two. I seriously doubt I'll ever hear from him to schedule another session. No matter what, I've lost a relationship that meant a lot to me. That's something I'll probably grieve for a very long time.
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