Posted by alexandra_k on December 3, 2013, at 17:52:46
In reply to Re: done, posted by alexandra_k on December 3, 2013, at 1:34:01
apparently the problem is supervision. or lack of it. and i just kind of fell through the cracks. should have been made to hand over little bits frequently. instead of getting myself into this hole of going round and round in circles on things. eventually... developing an aversion to writing.
i have an aversion to writing now. i can spend all week getting something 'good' (ish). only to discover that the whole idea was misguided and into the trash heap it goes. i don't know how many times over i've written a thesis already. and into the trash heap it went. trying to write a thesis that... my supervisor would write. were he to think on it. without him basically. since i'm too demoralized? scared? reluctant? sad? to waste his time giving him anything very much.
i don't know what to say. its my own hole. i dug it. he was really good (really good feedback) on the last third. but this next third... much closer to his stuff. i just... cringe a little inside when i think of giving it to him. 'well done dear, you have managed to independently reinvent first year textbook biology'. what a boring waste of time.
i'd rather... stare out my window today. tears.
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