Posted by alexandra_k on December 3, 2013, at 1:34:01
In reply to Re: done » alexandra_k, posted by Twinleaf on December 3, 2013, at 0:46:43
I'm kinda close, yeah. I have a draft of the first 1/3 - which is no mean feat. I've come to learn... That it isn't at all about doing a *good* thesis. Given the people I've got to get it through... Scraping the bare bones is far more than most people ever manage...
But...
On the other hand...
I have this sense of 'intellectual honesty'. And, er, if they can give me another summer or two in order to make Things Better... I'd... Uh... Rather take things. But I'd rather take things then. And pay things back later. Because. Ur. I actually have a chance of contributing to a group that is best in the world in my current field. Only... As everybody says... I'm doing things backwards in going from them to do science rather than having done science and then found my way to them. So, ur, I feel like they need to let me go. Because, ur, I found my way to them to early to know what I'd found. If that makes sense. And I know I'll appreciate them one day... But for now... I need them to let me go. And I'll work my f*ck*ng *ss off at math and physics and chemistry. And, ur. I'm a f*ck*ng academic because I just f*ck*ng well am. But I need to learn... That stuff right now. And of course I will come back. Because that is the nature of philosophy. But that... Well... Given the nature of philosophy... My thesis isn't f*ck*ng well done as yet. For, ur, for obvious reasons. So, ur. Time out. Please.
But please. I have worked hard. I'm not like them. I'm not like them. Please oh please oh please don't make me live like them.
I hate peoplel. What did you do????????????????
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