Posted by mmealltalk on February 15, 2011, at 21:02:42
In reply to Re: T opened additional office and i am going crazy » mmealltalk, posted by Dinah on February 14, 2011, at 19:49:28
I spoke to my therapist again today, and we went over how I feel about all of the changes and the hurt it is causing. She knows me well enough to know how I feel and react, and she knows when stuff like this happens I find it very difficult to rely on my intellect about our relationship to help me feel less unsure of whats happening. We do have a long relationship to look back on and at no point has she ever moved away from me or given me any reason to believe that she is not available. I have to keep this in mind, but its hard when I feel like everything is so up in the air. For most of the day I tried to keep in mind all the intellectual knowledge I have of our relationship in order to deter feeling so alone. After several hours however I broke down and cried my eyes out for the losses Im encountering and the sadness I feel. I was really a mess, and it was a terrible site, but I did try to keep my mind focused on the intellectual part for most of the day so my failing at the end of the day was a minor setback, or so I hope. I still feel awful about the changes and try to keep my knowledge of how well my therapist knows and cares about me in the front of my mind, its just hard. We will see how I do tomorrow.
Mel
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