Posted by mmealltalk on February 13, 2011, at 11:24:53
I just learned that my t opened an office in NYC; she has a home office on Long Island that I have seen her at for 19 years but she is trying to build a practice in the city now and I am so scared I am going to lose her. If thats not bad enough, my pdoc just gave me a lecture on why she has good reason for opening this office as she lost her husband last year and this will get her away from the house they shared. Anyway, I am going crazy. We have enough history to know that she isnt about to just drop me but she is making big changes in her life and I worry that soon I wont be included. She happens to be great about this, listening to my worries etc, but I feel like these feelings will never end and take over my every thought How terrible am I for feeling so upset about her doing something that she not only wants to do, but something that is in her best interest for her own mental health? I worry that she will become too preoccupied with her new office to take time to really be with me, or people from her current office. And what if she feels resentful that we are in some way reminders of the past and even if not intentionally starts to care less? My list of worries goes on and on and while I feel so upset about this I dont want her to think I am wishing her bad. I hope her practice in the city grows, but not so much that it will affect me seeing her. And I just feel so filled with emotion yet so guilty that this is hurting me so much. I dont have a clue about what to do/say.
Mel
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