Posted by FindingMyDesire on June 1, 2009, at 8:38:43
In reply to I think I'm pretty self absorbed...., posted by obsidian on May 27, 2009, at 22:27:11
obsidian,
Glad you are feeling that she cares right now.You know, I have really tried to stop myself from talking to my friends - even the very best of them - about my process in therapy. Even my friend who is in therapy and is married to a therapist can't get my experience or process. She thinks she does, but invariably I get hurt by something.
I think I'm starting to accept that the back-and-forth from "she loves me", "she loves me not" (haha) is just part of this "magical" process called therapy. And each of our processes are unique. I think this board is the best place to go to find others who "understand" but a big part of that I think is because we get that we can't totally get someone else's therapy experience. We get it enough to witness the scaffolding. We get it enough to support each other on the down swings without any judgment (hopefully). And we get it enough to encourage the growth, but the process is just a long, long process. People outside that special room won't totally get it, in my opinion. As much as I want to be sharing with my friends about it, I have had to back off. And for me, that has been good.
This totally turned into a ramble! (And a Babble love-fest).
Anyway, it's good to hear about your process - the hard and the good. It just "is." I wish for you more and more of the feeling of just "being."
FindingMyDesire
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