Posted by Dinah on May 29, 2009, at 23:39:27
I had a totally h*llish day. Both good overstimulation and very bad overstimulation. (The dealing with family sort of bad overstimulation.) Topped off with an emesis related near panic attack.
At the end of the bad overstimulation as I fled the scene, I called my therapist. He called back within an hour. The weird part (and unfortunate indication of potential growth) is that I don't think I really needed to call him. When I made the call, it felt like I was doing it more out of habit or a sense of what I should need than what I really needed. And he made things neither worse nor substantially better. It felt a bit forced.
Despite everything that happened, I didn't have a sense that I couldn't tolerate it.
And in the end, I seem to be on better terms with all my family than I was beforehand. Whether this is a good or a bad thing, I'm not entirely sure...
Is this what getting better feels like? Couldn't it *feel* a bit better? Or a lot better?
poster:Dinah
thread:898396
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20090515/msgs/898396.html