Posted by Poet on May 26, 2009, at 20:30:33
In reply to I'm thinking of you, posted by Dinah on May 26, 2009, at 13:41:57
at least that's what he said to my face. I told Him I thought he hated me because everytime I asked for more hours I was turned down. No, he doesn't hate me, he was waiting for me to take the initiative. Right now I'm taking some initiative and sending a cyber slap to his head.
I asked him why I wasn't considered for the fulltime job and he said "I didn't think you were interested in taking on any more responsibilities. You seem content to just do what you've been doing. You do it very well, but you never once took initiative. Look at 'Mimi' she's doing many things she never did before because she always came in and asked if I needed help. You've never asked if I need help."
I said, "I've asked you for more hours many times and you always said you don't want to make staff changes."
His response: "you didn't take the initiative and say if I had more hours I would do this, this, and this. You didn't ask the right way." (WHAT?)
Well, I am so sorry, dumb ol' me assumed he'd see my request for more hours as a willingness to take on more work. I told him a few jobs that it would make sense that I take over as I do parts of them and could easily do it from beginning to finish. He said, there will be changes since "Julie" is leaving this week and he'll think about what I suggested. When I left he was talking to "Julie's" replcement so maybe she'll agree that I should take things over. Or she'll stab me in the back.
Tomorrow I will bravely ask if he thought about me taking over some things. Though in retrospect I should have said "I will need X amount of more hours to accomplish these new tasks."
At least I wasn't completely anxiety ridden: the seroquel I took to sleep last night, the clonazepam I had for breakfast and my T's help, plus all of your support and suggestions really got me through this.
I'll post tomorrow.
Poet
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