Posted by Daisym on September 28, 2007, at 8:03:58
In reply to Read through to the end of the book - gasp, posted by ClearSkies on September 27, 2007, at 15:17:55
You sound like me...or me like you...the idea that there would be closure or remorse - but there just isn't. I've gone so far as to have a melt down around the thought of my therapist helping my (soon to be ex) husband - husband needs help but I don't want anymone giving him compassion. How sad is that?
Everyone needs compassion. But it is such a struggle to hold all the conflicting feelings of love and hate and understanding and hurt. It is easier to turn it on ourselves. I'm glad to hear you are beginning to forgive yourself. BTW - you were a victim and there is no shame in that. I know it isn't pc to say that, but so many people get all hung up on that word. Just because you were then doesn't mean you run around doing a "poor me" now. But you have every reason to feel sad and more about 18 years of abuse. This is NOT "wallowing" -- it is working through. It is reality.
I'm just sorry it was yours. I hope you continue to feel better.
Hugs,
Daisy
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