Posted by RealMe on September 24, 2007, at 22:38:56
In reply to RE: How could I change so quickly » RealMe, posted by twinleaf on September 24, 2007, at 21:38:15
Thanks for your response. It is good to hear that maybe there will still be improvement. I stopped the ECT early, after number 7 because I was in such a state. I could not remember anything for more than a few minutes to a few hours. I was so disoriented, I could not remember how to get to my place of employment. I was confused, significant problems with attention and concentration, word finding difficulties and spelling problems and more. Since I am a forensic psychologist now (trained in clinical psychology), I was so upset. Most things have improved over time, and so it took me by surprise that I got so disoriented trying to find the address where I was going. I also have cataracts from my pulmonary meds; and I was supposed to get my new glasses on Saturday, but they are not done yet. I too have a history of sexual, physical, and emotional abuse. I think I need to talk about the abuse stuff as when I don't, my T very nicely says that I am avoiding things, and what do I think that is about. Time before last I saw penises all over his carpet. Last time they were all cute animals and tress and shrubs. He has a Rorschach of a carpet--persian. Thanks, though. Your response means a lot to me, and isn't it amazing to get through school with all that has happened in one's life. I think for me school was a refuge when I was younger. Then, when I did the postdoctoral fellowship for two years, I thought I was past it all, that it would not bother me. My only more recent regret is that I did not see that my previous therapist was not qualified to deal with my abuse issues. I only ended up getting more and more depressed, hence the recommendation for ECT. I really wish so much I had never done it, but I can't go back and undo what has been done. My current T is a psychoanalyst who, from what he says, does not seem to favor ECT. Yeah!!! So thanks again.
RealMe
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