Posted by Scentedgarden on April 28, 2007, at 18:34:13
In reply to I need a kick in the *ss-wanka, wanka, poor me, posted by muffled on April 28, 2007, at 17:26:23
okay miss muffled here's huge understanding in a hug... from someone who knows how you feel in many ways... this will just be brief tho m- all i can say is, that u probably only want to drink to get hat lovely high feeling it gives.. i wouldnt read any more into it than that..about destroying yourself intentions possibly.... it's saturday night and you're under stress with the therapist things...and everything else... I used to drink ALOT... and now i dont... but i can relate for sure,as i know what it is like to feel like that drinky feeling is beckoning... LISTEN, IF YOU'VE BEN SOBER FOR 10 YRS ...thats something pretty amazing, but you know the score it's one day at a time.... you're stressing over Tuesday etc with your T...!!! focus on tonight... what else can u do to make it a good night, play wi ur kids, or curl up under a blanket in the living room...or make an indoor tent in the bed with the covers and your children.... or just watch a great movie and have ice cream and crips...or take a walk ( on the wild side...eat your heart out Lou Reed...lol).... You're totally normal girl...all that you want is to feel good!
As for you nasty fax toi ur T...please dont worry about it, i sent mine some real heavy hard stuff over the years and she fine...okay she may feel hurt ...but she has training to deal with all that ..its part of the job... i know you know all this MUff, im just being a pal...reminding you..!
and since its you...im going to tell you something precious to me..... my therapy is ending as u may know, and i am realising so much which i never noticed before (about the whole process of the therpay relation ship, attachment , gestalt, schema focused... CBT..ecletic work we've done together over 4 yrs...) and thsat is I REGRET TH HORRIBLE STUFF I SENT HER..! I WAS TESTING HER... AND ALL THIS TIME NOW I KNOW SHE WAS AND IS ON MY FU*CKING SIDE..! SHE AINT TRYING TO HARM ME..! i dont know you're therapist MUffly but from reading your posts over the last couple of years id hazzard a guess she aint a bad spud...i mean i think u got a good one there..!so my advice if im alolowed to give advice to you... is relax, forget the sh*t thats happened last week, this is the weekend now, focus on ur weekend...enjoy it and chill girl.... dont give the next working week athought until MOnday morning...
...........and lastly 'Make he most of that woman you've got there helping you, as it maybe like me wont last forever, and you'll not get the chances again to make the very most of your time witha lady therapist eho cares for you and your well being probably more than you know..!okay so i could be talking utter tripe...so please dont think im shoving all hat on you... its just my 2 cents worth...which you have drwn out of me...because it's you, and you're so very kind and giving, and warm and caring for lots of others on here and so obviously in your rela life...
i said all that because all i just wanted to say were 2 things... :) 1:>> ur likely just wanting the high from the booze, thats a normal desire that most of the world has ona saturday night..! but is it really worth it..! only you know the ansa to that! 2:>> Make the most of that T you got there..
mucho respecto
Sg ((((hugs)))..have good weekend Muff..! x
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