Posted by muffled on April 28, 2007, at 17:26:23
damn I want to drink so bad, its been getting worse.
Been dry 10+ yrs.
Not allowed to phone T on weekend.
Almost blew it last night.
This is hard.
I CAN'T drink.
I lose all reason.
I sometimes wonder if I just want to drink so I can destroy myself.
Cuz rationally I can't do that i got kids who need me.
This sucks.
Told T on meesage machine on Fri a.m. that mebbe wouldn't come Tues. She phone late fri aft to say why?(on MY machine).I phone back, no answer and say pettily, that I just might not be able to come. I had sent her a nasty fax that a.m. too.
I can't phone her.
I just want to have a wee taste is all.
Just to see.
WEEKENDS SUCK.
WTF yoiu supposed to suddenly be OK cuz its the weekend??????????????????
Oh fine, I'll goto ER, they look at me like I crazy and say we not admit you.(pun intended)
WTF a person to do, but stew?(rhyme intended)
Sh*t anyways.
poster:muffled
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