Posted by Racer on September 9, 2006, at 20:25:31
In reply to Re: bye to counsellor ***SI trig » muffled, posted by ElaineM on September 9, 2006, at 19:48:10
> >>>>thank you so much for letting us know how it went. That must have been a difficult post for you to write.
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> Honestly, most of the time I post I'm in a panic. I blurt alot, and worry about it later. But mostly I just wish I had something nice to tell you all, at least once. I don't want to be difficult and make you guys push me away.
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>So, uh, Elaine? Do you hate me? Want to run away from me? Think I'm pathetic and negative and not contributing anything to this board? Utterly worthless and selfish and loathsome?
During a really awful period of my life about two years ago, I was posting LOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ravings about how hopeless my life was, entirely negative, deflecting any advice anyone gave me -- in my defense about that, it wasn't that I didn't think it was good advice, so much as not possible in my situation -- and generally feeling as though I was a huge black hole sucking all the energy out of the world around me. Including Babble. During that time, I doubt I even read other people's posts, let alone responded to them.
And I felt all those things I wrote above.
So, if you think I'm accepted here on Babble as a full member, with all the priviledges anyone else has, then guess what? You are too. You are whether you have anything nice to tell us or not.
Do we want to hear good news from you? Of course -- but it's because we care what happens to you. It's not because we're sick of you, it's only that we wish we could wave magic wands to fix it all for you.
Peace, Elaine. You're welcome and accepted here, regardless of what your internal critic tells you.
poster:Racer
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