Posted by wishingstar on May 4, 2006, at 22:18:38
In reply to Re: im doing this to myself, posted by gardenergirl on May 4, 2006, at 0:16:49
I agree.. it is definitely depression. I suffered through a very serious depression about 6 years ago and was okay until around Dec, but things have gone down hill again. I'm all too familiar with what may be to come.
I really appreciate the flu analogy and what you said about depression being debilitating. You're right.. but it's easy to forget that and blame myself anyway. Even now, there's a big part of me that says "yes, but it's STILL your choice!" But part of me knows it's partially not as well. I think I'm independent and take care of myself (dont let anyone else) to the point that it hurts me in the end.. and this is just another example. If I cant get my butt in gear and do what I need to do, what good am I? But part of me knows better. It helps to hear someone else reinforce that though. Becuase I AM trying.
Yes.. I think CBT may be a good thing for me. My current T says she uses CBT techniques, but I dont think it's her big focus. Switching to someone else just seems to be a monumental task and way too scary, as I'm sure you all understand. This summer, I'll be out of town for 8 weeks and hopefully seeing a T I saw years ago. She was wonderful and did more CBT (as I remember) so I'm hoping that'll be a good experience.
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