Posted by B2chica on May 3, 2006, at 12:19:12
This weekend i decided to just stop therapy. i'm sure it's not the best decision for me but the thought of therapy with my current therapist is anxiety provoking. it's not helping me. only making me worse. so i see her today and i'm going to talk to her about our miscommunication last week, my frustration, how over emotionally i respond and how this is just not good for me. ever since i made that decision i've already felt tons better.
i did see that guy T last week. he was ok. but...i just don't thin khe has the skill. the other female T i saw the week before, well, she's in residency and i don't feel she has the experience. i'm in a medium size town and just feel surrounded by mediocrity.
i see my pdoc next week and will see if he recommends anyone. though we've been through that before and he doens't really like any of the T's here either (except he did like last t i picked!-good taste). anyway, i dont' think i could have picked a worse time. me being off my meds, trying to get pregnant, which btw i saw obgyn this morning and she said i will have a very difficult time getting pregnant on my own and wants to start me on hormones right away. sort of depressing. but i should have known, it seems i have to fight for everything. why should this be any different.anyway. ya, bad timing. but i'd rather be with no one, than with a T that makes me worse.
send good vibes that i don't chicken out.
need a little support.love you all
b2c.
poster:B2chica
thread:639612
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