Posted by orchid on April 28, 2006, at 16:57:25
I have been feeling somewhat like talking to my first T - after a long time.
I would have liked a small email exchange or a quick phone call, something warm and nice. I haven't heard even once from him after that termination email though I wrote to him a few times - maybe 5 times or so initially.
I don't feel like wanting to be friends with him now, and I don't have those intense longings I felt - neither like a friend nor romantically.
It has been more than a year, and for all practical purposes he would have forgotten all details about me by now. And he is leading a busy life with his family, friends, etc. He ended up helping me a lot, and I think I still feel very grateful for that, though sometimes when I think he termianted me very badly, I think what the heck, he never really cared much anyway. But then, he probably doesn't really know how much I struggled post termination. My couple of emails couldn't have conveyed what I really went through and how I managed to grow.
I guess I have been feeling like putting flowers on the grave of something which once meant a lot.
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