Posted by happyflower on April 28, 2006, at 0:26:35
Everything in my life, everyone, my past, my present , my future, have all been on my mind. I have so much I want to talk about in my next session, I don't even know where to start because I don't want to stop talking. I am beginning to really hate when therapy ends, I sort of sit there, and I just hate it. I hate that I have to keep it all until my next session. Well 2 weeks later, my head is so full of so many more new stuff. It seems like nothing gets worked out because so much gets skipped. I feel like I need him to talk to for at least 10 hours, so I can get it all out.
I am beginning to hate almost everything about therapy. It sucks that nobody else cares enough to listen to me, and the one person who does care I have to pay to listen. I guess I could listen to someone for 90 bucks an hour and then shew them out of my office and ha, ha, I don't have to see that freak for another 2 weeks. Oh, look, the next freak will be here in 5 minutes. On and oh, blah blah blah. Nobody really cares, I paying someone thousands of dollars to care, but they don't really care. I am a client, I am nothing but a part of a piece rate job, a number, nothing more. When am I going to wake up and realize I don't need therapy anymore, I don't need this hurt, what a dumb *ss for even thinking someone cares. He is only nice to me when he sees me out because he feels obligated. He doesn't really want to talk to me, he doesn't really want to see me. Blah, blah , blah.
I bet he thinks, look at that pathetic girl, who nobody loves or cares about, and isn't it sad that she thinks I do , but I am only getting paid to pretend. What a loser. Therapy sucks. Life sucks. Love sucks, parents suck, wanting love and not getting it sucks. Having love taken away sucks. The world can just kiss my big ***.
Sincerely,
Gutterflower who is so niave to think my T cares.
poster:happyflower
thread:637717
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