Posted by madeline on April 24, 2006, at 6:51:42
In reply to Doctor's appt - strong CSA trigger - need help., posted by madeline on April 21, 2006, at 17:44:05
I keep replaying the exam in my head and the feelings afterward. It's the last thing I think about at night before the sleeping pill kicks in and the first thing I think about in the morning.
I feel so abandoned, manipulated and just gone. Just absolutely vanished.
I go to my T today and that's a good thing, but we've already talked about this for one whole session. I don't know what more he can add. He has no clue what it is like.
In order to feel more in control, I've researched so much about pelvic exams I could probably DO one, but it seems to be retraumatizing me even more.
I'm really at a loss here. I've got to quit being so upset about this and move on. But I just don't think I can.
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