Posted by PreemieNurse on December 20, 2005, at 10:46:38
In reply to Re: Hello..new here and long post (triggers ) » PreemieNurse, posted by Tamar on December 19, 2005, at 3:40:36
> Hello and welcome!
>Thanks for the welcome. It's been really nice.
> Thanks for sharing your story. I agree with Tarabara: I’m really impressed at how far you’ve come, and at your courage in telling your therapist about your feelings of love.
>Sharing my story in THIS form is easy. I'm quite good at being able to remain anonymous. ;)
I don't think that it was courage that lead me to talking to him about my feelings. It was more like desperation.
> I think when you fall in love with a therapist it’s very special and certainly not just part of the process. I’m sure that when it happens it means there’s a particular kind of special connection between the therapist and the client. It’s not all in your mind; it’s a function of the real relationship and the way you interact when you’re in the room together. And just because he interprets it symbolically, that doesn’t mean it isn’t real.
>It certainly FEELS real.
> I know what you mean about wanting him. I want my therapist too, particularly when I’m having a hard day or I’m feeling depressed. I know you say you’re fighting it, but in my own experience I found that fighting it made it worse and was more painful. But I know it can be difficult to believe you’re allowed to want him. Sometimes it’s hard to believe that wanting him is a good thing, particularly because it hurts so much. The thing that helped me was to try to focus on the part of it that felt good, because it was the only way I could accept that there was something good about it…
>You're right. I find comfort in knowing that I'm not completely alone anymore. It may be only what it is, but for right now, I don't feel like I'm battling through life completely by myself.
> It sounds to me as if you’ve been working very hard in therapy. I know the feeling of having to go deeper. It’s scary. Have you talked to your therapist about how to do it? You might need to take it very slowly indeed. I hope it goes well.
>I'm going to talk to him about it Friday. Actually, I'm going to give him my original posting that I made here and let it go from there. I feel like it's been going too slowly already. I want to start remembering things. Everyone says that memories will come when they are ready, I know.
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