Posted by daisym on June 10, 2005, at 18:02:38
In reply to Jury Duty - Never mind, posted by fallsfall on June 10, 2005, at 12:06:37
**I also want him to go out of his way so I can get better. I want him to offer to see me at 7AM or 7:30, or in the evening. I understand why he doesn't (and I think that he is probably right to NOT do that), but I *want* him to. I want him to prove that he is invested in my getting better. Maybe I want him to prove to me that if I get better I won't lose therapy (because he'll bend his boundaries to make sure that I don't lose therapy). I don't want to have to choose between life and therapy.**
I think it is understandable to be disappointed that you feel ready to do something but now can't. But I agree with what you wrote above about part of the disappointment is that you perhaps were testing him to see if you are still going to be able to see him as much when you get better or when you need to...etc. I know this is one of my fears. But I guess I don't see him as having failed the test by holding the boundaries because that feels to me like he sees your therapy as super important for you to CONTINUE feeling this good.I agree with Dinah -- be proud of everything you've done over the past few weeks and don't push yourself so hard that you crash. Even people who aren't struggling with all the things you are would be tired after the month you've had. Enjoy feeling strong and perhaps channel that energy into another project. Is there something you need or want to be doing that you could tackle? I know you are also working hard in therapy, this isn't a maintanence or shoring up period, so keeping a regular schedule right now seems important.
I'm so proud of you, Falls. I hope you know that. Love and hugs,
Daisy
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