Posted by B2chica on June 7, 2005, at 18:12:48
In reply to Thanks. Yes timing is key. Especially for treating » Daisym, posted by pinkeye on June 7, 2005, at 14:48:38
first, shortelise...Great idea! about the cover, will try to do that.
Daisy and pinkeye are both right. i was recently hospitalized BECAUSE of THIS issue. My T did recommend it and think i'm coming along, but he wants me to still have more 'coverage' and notices i'm not 'handling' things cuz i'm turning more and more to mixing my pills and alcohol. i wish i could stay numb all day. i don't want to go to work, i want to stay home and read and drink (probably couldn't do both huh?:)
anyway, i do feel that i need to read it. the only way i can really admit it is if i 'research' it to death.
there is still a big part of me that just DOESN'T want to believe i fit in the category. i can't remember if i told you this but over the weekend i went to one of our libraries and looked in the CSA section, found definitions of sibling and 'neighbor' abuse and started bawling cuz i realized at that time that i AM a human being, which i've never really felt like, AND that reading those definitions...i do fit.
yesterday after session, i didn't 'close' well and went home and had a six pack(red beers) and about 8 chocolate chip cookies....yes together.so you are both right, i do need to read it, but i'm not stable.
i have an 'intake' eval tomorrow before my T appt. for substance abuse counseling. my T said it's more than that and that would give me more 'coverage' than just seeing him.
if i don't stop of change soon i will end up dead. right now i don't want that.
i will fight.
i love babble and WISH!!!!!!! i could have met you all in chicago.b2c.
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