Posted by Annierose on October 24, 2004, at 6:59:51
In reply to Re: Leaving is so hard to do!, posted by Skittles on October 24, 2004, at 2:25:17
I cannot see the clock either. But I can sort of feel when the time is up. I am usually lying down, eyes closed, but she'll start to wrap things up. If I'm sad, crying, upset, etc, she'll
lighten up the conversation prior to the ending time. Sometimes I can't wait to leave, I want to bolt from the pain I was discussing. Others, I want to bask in her warmth and postive regard. This is what makes me uncomfortable. I take my shoes off (because I lie down). So it's always awkward for me, when she tells me "we have to stop" (or something like that) and I get up (head is sometimes all dizzy), I fumble getting my shoes on, and I feel this awkward-her-looking-at- me-slience. She remains seated until I stand up and head towards the door. She'll say good-bye, or something to that effect. But I feel a need to mumble something while I fuss with my shoes. In the summer, I wouldn't bother putting my sandles on. I'd just walk out of her office barefoot. This shouldn't be so hard, nor should I ponder this so much. Therapy really takes a huge room in my brain.
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