Posted by DaisyM on January 16, 2004, at 19:27:03
In reply to Re: Due to the mature nature of this post... » Karen_kay, posted by Dinah on January 16, 2004, at 18:13:08
Ok, this is really really cruel. But the best thing about no lung capacity is that it HAS to be really really quick...
I'm sad, I know. For me it isn't the actual "sex", it is the other, touching stuff. Of course, those are also my vivid memories. And oral sex...torture, pure torture. I can't believe I just typed that, I haven't even told my Therapist that.
2 weeks ago, for the first time in my life that I remember, I floated away. At least it was during a session. I mean, things tunneled in, the light behind him grew big and I saw myself float out the window...scared the hell out of me. My Therapist knew something was wrong -- he said, "what just happened?" and then we talked about dissociation. He feels I must have done this as a kid but I don't remember (I guess that is the point, right?) So that is part of why I've been so afraid to go back to the subject we were on. I know I should, but it was so unnerving...It felt like just before you faint but I never blacked out...very weird. I get anxious just thinking about it again.
Is there a way to prevent it?
poster:DaisyM
thread:301258
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20040116/msgs/301823.html