Posted by Karen_kay on January 16, 2004, at 15:24:48
In reply to Re: Due to the mature nature of this post... » DaisyM, posted by antigua on January 16, 2004, at 14:16:31
The strange thing with me is that sometimes I'm ok with it. If I initiate sex, it's ok, actually I can sort of enjoy the experience a bit. If I don't initiate it, I say no. If he doesn't stop persisting, then I lose my voice and I can't move. And luckily it goes fast, though it seems to take forever. And he doesn't notice I'm crying, so that's good. And I can't blame him because I don't resist, and he doesn't know what happened in the past. But I still resent him for it. Also, I've gotten really good at studying German while it's happening, or making grocery lists or just closing my eyes so hard I feel like they are going to drop into my throat. And my therapist wonders why I call sex bad....
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