Posted by DaisyM on November 18, 2003, at 14:04:03
In reply to Re: Bury it! » DaisyM, posted by fallsfall on November 18, 2003, at 13:08:59
Interesting. I use to teach a childbirth ed class where I would have moms imagine a safe place in their brain, sort of an escape room. Sounds like the same sort of thing with your box. I love the image of the hubby-in-a-box - arms and legs sprawled out. Fits my needs right now!
I find I do best when I am in a group that is work-related. I usually have to lead, or at least contribute significantly to the discussions. This makes me be my "professional" self - no emotional leaking going on here. It is making myself attend these meetings that is getting harder and harder. I want to hide out in my office with my door closed.
I have the opposite reaction to writing. Once it is down on paper, I can let go of the anxiety a little. I have only just realized lately how anxious I am all the time. Is this an improvement from being depressed and "flat" all the time? It almost feels worse in some ways. I tried to describe this free-floating anxiety in session yesterday so we could figure out what is triggering it. I think I figured it out on the way home -- I still have another part of my "story" that I haven't told my Therapist, and I really want to but the words just won't come out. He just gently asks, "tell me about the part of you that wants to tell me" instead of directly asking me to tell him. It is difficult.
And, then the thoughts won't stay in the damn box!!
Thanks for sharing so much detail. I'll keep trying to force that lid on.
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