Posted by ZH389 on November 2, 2002, at 22:45:47
In reply to Re: BORDERLINE Disorder - proper med rate of success » ZH389, posted by Nikita on October 22, 2002, at 12:49:48
Sorry for my late response...been busy.
> Are you on any medications?
Yes. Did tried several who failed but now I am on Remeron. A pill at night. Also have clonazepam for as I am dealing with panic attack/social phobial.
But with Reremon, I don't see 'really' any improvement on the Bordeline side. Give me good night rest and a 'loss of hair' (that worries me) but I am functionnal on this. Not too much 'zombi-like' like previous medication I had.
>I have found Risperdal to help level my moods out, I realized it during an argumnet with a man I'm dating and thought, hey, I didn't do any thing wrong, so I went in my room and painted my toenails!
hehe...I can understand these mood behavior...Never heard of Risperdal (will do a net search on this) Thanks for the info.
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> Also, my p-doc gave me a book, Mind Over Mood, to help with my highs and lows, and irrational thinking. It basically has worksheets, which I dreaded, but they actually helped.
Is this Book availble to purchase?
Do you know the author?
I definitively am searching for a workbook.I saw one also made 'specially for Borderlines'.
As anyone of you have this workbook?
It is called:
"The BPD Recovery Workbook" written by The American Borderline Peer Recovery Network is a 232 page 6 month program that puts you in charge of your own recovery."
website is:
http://www.borderline.250x.com/
>Then you have to write what the person may have actually been saying, not what you perceived.
Yes, we tend to perceive so 'differently' then others...we always feel guilty or attack. Well, that is my case anyways.
>And finally, you rate your moods again and usually, they come down considerably. I'm trying to apply these steps when I get so upset. In the past, I would blow up, scream in cry, go in the bathroom, and cut.
- Hmmm...same here. But I try to control this now. Is hard. It's like I can't keep such intense feelings inside. It has to 'burst out'. And that rage is put on myself...destroying myself mentally and physically.
>I still do that alot, but I'm working on it. I realize i've always had BPD and that it's going to a lot of work to get control of my emotions and thought process.Me too. The cutting started when I was 15. I'm 30 now. I thought I was maybe 'stuck' in my teenage years as I keep going through the same process of behavior and assimilate information all wrong...Well, I thought they were my thoughts OK and them , not. Is weird to learn you are the one who has 'broken' thinking.
>Good luck.Thanks, you too.
>What kind of therapy are you going through?
Cognitive therapy. Once a week. Is ok. I mean I've learn alot about the borderline condition and recognized myslef enough to agree I had this. Now the fact of knowing about this disorder makes me more conscious about my future actions/behaviors...sometimes, instead of 'blowing out' and scream my rage to a person...I will simply leave the place...'to save this person a massacre of words' but the thing is I still cannot handle them. Once gone, I might as well cry and cut or whatever...That is the very hard part for me. To deal with extreme emotions.
Thanks to all that as posted. I'm glad to see others on this board sharing what they go through and maybe together, we can come up with ideas and hopefully find a little rest/peace somewhere in our daily lives.
Isa.
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