Posted by bookgurl99 on September 18, 2002, at 11:39:43
In reply to Re: feeling p****ed off » bookgurl99, posted by medlib on September 16, 2002, at 21:43:59
Hey medlib --
I'm visiting a neuro-immunologist. The reason, basically, is that my symptoms have been most consistent with immunological disorders of the CNS, such as M.S. These disorders are typically hard to treat or dx, and a specialist could help me rule them in or out. (Plus, I think a specialist would understand some of the 'abnormal' lab findings I've had that MD's at my small-town doctor couldn't understand).
As far as the seizures, they've really taken me by surprise. I don't think they're pseudo-seizures; I guess I associate pseudo-seizures with 12-year-olds who don't understand medicine and need attention. I don't think mine are psychogenic because my symptoms overall came on when my life was great and relatively stress-free. I know they're not complete petit mal because I retain consciousness, but that feeling of having my head plugged into a socket and my body jerking uncontrollably is unmistakable.
As for my identity, yeah it's a major identity issue. I've had a near-genius iq my whole life and suddenly I'm "normal." (Thankfully I still do NOT vote Republican.) I'm used to a certain set of expectations about the future, and now I'm confused about it. Can I still do what I was planning to do with my life? This is part of why I'm continuing to see specialists; so I can have more information about what to expect.
But I really do miss thinking a lot, thinking rapidly, manipulating information and theories and being more concise.
:D
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