Posted by ClearSkies on September 12, 2007, at 13:45:37
In reply to Re: Self-esteem and FAT » ClearSkies, posted by JLx on September 11, 2007, at 23:09:24
> I'm a little surprised that there hasn't been more interest in this topic. I can't help but wonder if I had posted about how much I hate myself being fat, how ugly I feel with all this fat, how I look in the mirror and see my fat face and want to puke, etc. if I would have received more response.
>I've been noticing that the "outlying" boards have been so very slow in traffic lately - it's really discouraging. I don't think it's a matter of what the type of post, really I don't! Just take a look at the Relationships and Substances boards... people just AREN'T posting there. I say, Keep It Up.
My therapist, who has been helping me get to my 2 year point in sobriety, has been helping me plan the next steps for me. Getting myself more active - I am the original role model for the couch potato, and I come from a fine family of couch potatoes - is critical in my mental health, yet it's a place where I keep falling down.
> I've learned though that while these feelings and thoughts may sometimes arise, I need to allow them and let go of them; not feed them. Or I just sink and wallow in self-loathing.
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> That's why fat acceptance is important to me. I think I'll title a new post on that, maybe it will generate some more interest. Tomorrow. I'm already up to late.
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> JL
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>I don't want to wallow in anything - I want to be accepting of myself at any size. I can romanticize about how lovely I looked at a slender 21 years of age, but the truth was that I was terribly depressed and a very ill young woman then. I don't really want to go back, and I don't want to rose tint the image I have of myself, 24 years younger and 20 lbs lighter.
ClearSkies
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