Posted by Phillipa on October 1, 2006, at 12:26:04
Well as hard as I fight I woke up this morning feeling like a worthless piece of you know what. It seems I help or can help everyone but me. Now my brain is saying oh you want to committ suicide but I don't it's just my brain talking. And the fears when I stay home or go out are horrible. The hospital is out as they don't try to help you anymore it's a holding place. So how do you get your brain to change its's low self esteem thinking. I think I was triggered my watching ER last night. I always wanted to get back into nursing but reality is that I can't. Heck the show upset me so much I was crying. The scenes were so gross. How did I do it for l5 years. So now what? Love Phillipa
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