Posted by Racer on September 26, 2006, at 1:25:20
In reply to Distortion, posted by ClearSkies on September 25, 2006, at 16:27:38
I used to know someone who had a signature on email that said something like "In childhood, we make faces at the mirror. In middle age, the mirror takes its revenge."
Pretty much sums it up, don't it?
CS, you know I think well of you. Do you think that I'm too distorted in my view? Do you think that I'm crazy? Well, OK, I am crazy, but you know do know that I am picky, right? And I do think well of you.
There is distortion here, of course. Depression does cause distortion, and it will make a difference in what you see in your mental mirror. Some of what you're experiencing is probably normal. My grandmother, at the end of her life, used to get a look in her eye when she sat by the mirror on her dressing table and put on her moisturizer. I asked her once, and she told me she never expected to see that old woman in the mirror. Behind her eyes, she was still nineteen.
Now, in my own middle age, I know what she meant. I'm not old yet, but I'm certainly older than I expect when I look in the mirror. It's scary, isn't it? That's not the face you expect, is it? (Although, think of this: I don't miss acne, do you?)
As for what you accomplish, each day, that really is depression, and hormones, and all sorts of truly sucky variables. I'm sorry you're having such trouble, my treasured friend. Your yoga teacher is right, you know. And even if you never know why I value you, I hope you do know that I do.
xoxo
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