Posted by yxibow on February 5, 2009, at 0:54:18
In reply to Re: books/priodicals/websites on psychopharmacology » yxibow, posted by SLS on January 30, 2009, at 12:59:42
> Hi Jay.
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> > Yes.... if I was able to concentrate and read more on books I would as well... and there are a few others by Stahl as well, he is generally regarded as an expert in this field.
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> I love books, even though I wasn't able to read a single paragraph for so many years. I kept buying books hoping that remission was just around the corner. I cry when I see my shelves filled with the books I have accumulated and never opened. Most of them are obsolete now.
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> The thing that is so interesting is that I have had the ability to write without having the ability to read. Do you find this so as well?
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> - ScottIts threefold, one my visual problems, and two OCD, and three short term memory issues that arent 100% the Valium, but involve more complex issues as well.
I can read magazines, my attention span is enough if its something that I find intellectually stimulating.
Digesting books like I did in college even with having to read passages over again (OCD still) is not the state today.
Writing -- hmm... and talking... I have word finding problems and spelling mistakes that I didn't have before -- remembering a song or a movie or a four syllable word, and its just right there but I can't push through a lot.
It doesn't mean my intellect is gone, its just in a twist -- long term and medium term memory is there if I take a breath and go back (of course I need to remember to 'live in the present', but that's another story)... short and very short term memory... I can be thinking oh, I want to look up X on Wikipedia and then I'm at the computer and I'm like... why am I here ? And then it hits me about a minute later.
There's also a bit of if I really want to do something, I'll do it.... kinda there my life. Motivation, to read and write. I mean college was a structured place, something good for someone with OCD actually, and though I didn't always like writing things, I found myself capable of writing 20 or 30 page papers (of course setting the font at 13 poin.... well... heh...anyhow). As you can see in this paragraph, I'm also well known for run-on sentences and pages.So, its a mixed bag I guess.
I'm frustrated I'm not as motivated on work I'm doing through therapy that I should be doing at home -- but that's a whole different story, I think I tend to avoid and go back into a shell at times.
Anyhow that's sort of it in a glance.
-- Jay
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