Posted by Justherself54 on August 8, 2008, at 17:46:52
In reply to Do people ever actually 'graduate' from PB? Pain., posted by uncouth on August 8, 2008, at 16:37:53
I'm sure there are many people who have left babble after completing remission...many have left for a variety of reasons and some have reached remission and stayed to support others.
I stay because knowledge is power. I don't feel it has caused any med seeking behaviour. As I'm on a MAOI there is support here for me to answer questions and help me make decisions about my treatment. Many posters have read journals and done massive amounts of research and I am grateful that I can benefit from their knowledge.
I don't feel guilty about the amount of time I spend here. At least here there are people who "get me". No one here tells me to snap out of it or pull myself up by my bootstraps or thinks that I'm on disability because I'm screwing the system.
I think everyone's wish is for a state of being where they feel normal. Whether that's ever in the cards for me? It doesn't appear to be so far.
You bring up questions that I've asked myself many times. Will I ever be better? Have I lost my potential to work again? Will I find a life partner who can cope with all this?
I know there are things I could be doing other than being a couch potato and surfing the net, but at this stage of my treatment and illness I don't have the energy or motivation to do them. I try to remind myself this illness beats me up bad enough and try to accept things as they are right now...not forever...right now.
Hope springs eternal. I have had successful medication trials where I have felt as normal as I could ever hope for...except the meds poop out.
I hope you find the right combo of meds to help you feel like yourself again. Then you can decide to graduate from Babble or stay on as a mentor..and remember, no one has lack of potential..it may be in places we'd never think of looking..
Your friendly, middle-aged bipolar grandma who's still clinging to hope!
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