Posted by storm rider on February 1, 2006, at 15:01:51
In reply to Re: Topomax and redheads..., posted by fierycelt on February 1, 2006, at 0:47:03
> Kat...I am glad you consider me a friend. I am glad to have "met" you. I certainly consider you a friend. Thank you. I feel grateful for stumbling upon this site. It was fate and of course, Dr. Bob...
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> I have never been an over-eater. I have never been a junk food eater and I don't even like soda! I grew up eating good nutritious food and was encouraged to exercise to burn off that extra ADDHD energy. Also probably to save my mother's sanity from her "busy" child. My mother was ahead of her time, she knew "enriched food" was food that had the nutrients sucked out and then put back in with preservatives.
> The Lexapro wrecked my metabolism and caused me to develop Metabolic Syndrome. I went from 130lbs to 185lbs. Lexapro is poison. I wasn't happy, I wasn't unhappy. I was just there. I was sluggish and at times more depressed than ever. My GP put me on it because he thought I had PMS. It's not his fault he was just trying to help.
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> You have Epilepsy not BP...you don't have strange moody unexplainable behaviour. It makes it hard to get along with people and situations. It is like you are a strange prickly square peg trying to fit into a smooth round hole...very weird. Thus it has been easier for you to get jobs without a complete degree. Although nearly having a degree helps. These days, employers won't even talk to you , let alone take an application without a BA under your belt.
> I qualify for the "would you like fries with that?" kind of jobs...I learn the job the first few days, the first few weeks I'm bored and after the first month I am frustrated, with a bad attitude...
> I need to start feeling better, so I can convice someone to give me a chance, without a BA, and give me a good job, with good pay and good benefits. I am not making any money to cover my bills. My meds cost $250. and that is after what the insurance pays, lousy insurance. I have to do the clean up from the "hurricane" my life has become...oh yeah, my life has gone past riding out a storm. My debt is unbelieveably scary.
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> So, you see why I am in such a hurry to have my meds work...at a pace of 25mg every 2 weeks, it will take me 8 weeks to reach therapeutic levels. Impatient Redhead...hhhmmm
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> I realize Topamax is not a guaranteed "fix"...just a helper...boy do I need help!!! I just want to be normal...
> I think the Topamax is starting to make me feel sick after I eat...
> I am very depressed today...
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> oh...I'm a good phtographer, I think
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> SuzyAre you taking the topomax in the evenings? or in the mornings? If you start it in the mornings it causes a really nauseating experience...
been there and done that... yes, I know it is one of the passe expressions, but I don't really care... it covers the situation...
I almost stopped using the stuff, but then I decided to pick up the sheets the neurologist gave me with the prescription and lo and behold it said to start in the evening otherwise I would probably feel nauseous or worse...
duh... the paper was something I was supposed to read?????
who'd a thunk it...It may surprise you to know that people are highly uncomfortable around epileptics...
it is something that no one wants to talk about...
my mother refused to mention it...
she didn't even tell me I had been diagnosed until a year ago!!! when I had to be hospitalised an episode that nearly killed me...
when I asked why she hadn't told me she informed me that illness was a sign of weakness and I had to learn to get on with my life; besides I didn't need to know...
When I was about 22 my doctor thought I might be epileptic but suggested we not mention it because of the stigma attached... it could cost me my teaching job and heaven knew what else might happen, after all, I didn't want my husband to leave me and take the children did I?
My son was about seven weeks old and my daughter about two-and-a-half...
and the doctor was convinced that if my husband were to find out I might be epileptic he would leave and sue for custody... an epileptic being not fit to care for children...
Things have changed somewhat but there are still people - employers among them - who expect an epileptic to have knock down raging frothing 'fits'...
Just last week as we were getting ready to start my show one of the cameramen made a crack about the smell of burnt toast when someone hit a particular switch, then apologised to me, because he thought I might think I was about to 'have a fit' when I smelled it...
He was actually trying to be sensitive, but he missed the mark by a country mile...
BiPolar-ism and other forms of depression are badly misunderstood by people who do not suffer the effects, and I appreciate the problems only too well...
but to some extent we wear the same moccasins...as for the learning then getting bored, that is a shared problem too...
I need to be challenged all the time in my work -- can't count the number of career changes because of boredom...
I have been through so many incarnations that I have met myself coming in the door as I was going out...
You enjoy photography and are good at it?
Put it to work...
I love working with my cameras... so I shoot weddings and portraits and that supports my other bad habits... my nature photography which ends up as limited edition prints and stationery and post cards as well as my dog show and competition expenses...
I wanted to find other ways to deal with this epilepsy and the other health problems... the redhead stuff like immune problems and so on, so I studied reiki and IET and now am a reiki practitioner...
it will never make me rich, but it pays for the other things I need so it all the balls juggling in the air keep each other moving around...and I don't get as bored as I used to...
and when I am bored I am miserable and become depressed... Seasonal affective disorder is a problem for me... about this time of year I can become so desperately depressed because of the lack of light that I need to be wildly occupied or I am unable to function...
and I refuse ever to use anti-depressants again...
so I keep juggling more balls in the air...as long as I can keep them spinning up there I have no time to realise the days are short and the nights long and the sky is grey...
Find the things at which you are really good, then promote them... and promote you...
as for the weight, it will start of slowly I found then it will come off more noticeably...
just be sure to eat sensibly and it sounds as if you have that in hand...
and I am glad you are my friend...
I enjoy tempestuous interesting people...
such fun to be around...and there are some truly caring and neat people here...
Stresser and Rainy come to mind and others I have just met in passing, but they will help you too,
trust me...
it is a strong place to be...
kat
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