Posted by bridgey1128 on October 19, 2004, at 10:15:11
In reply to Re:laundry and fish, posted by Stressee on October 19, 2004, at 8:50:07
I take it because I am bipolar type II. I just recently upped it yesterday because I had just about had enough of my own self, nevermind what my friends and family has thought of me! That and I have had absolutely no desire to do anything really. Housework, never a favorite anyway!, but I can at least DO it. I just have let my house go to pot because I just can't make myself do it. THat and I have gained about 5lbs back. That doesn't seem like much but when I have worked so hard so lose this 20lbs that I gained coming off the Effexor it's upsetting. And I still have about 90 more to go in my book. Day two of the upped dosage has me feeling even better so I can't say I have regretted upping it without my Dr's permission. I knew it was time anyway. I have felt so cruddy. Plus I have been bad and have been off my diet, so I know that is why I have been so tired. Carbs make me so loagie. Yeah I know I know! Carbs supposedly give you energy! WRONG!!! That isn't what they do to me. They wear me out and make me very tired. When I am on Atkins I feel so good. My body was never meant to burn carbs. I guess that is why I do so well on that diet. I have tried everything under the sun and that is the ONLY diet that has ever worked for me. I had the lady at the gym gripe at me about it didn't work and I said, "Oh really? Is that why I lost 90lbs on it the last time? And my cholesterol went down? And my energy went up?" SHe said it has something to do with cutting calories...uh when you pig out of bacon and eggs..that isn't exactly cutting calories!!! When I exercise, I just gain muscle. I don't lose fat! It's stupid. So, I do it the easy way. I just diet and the fat comes off and I already have a lot of muscle under it anyway. That's why I am so heavy and don't look it. I saw a commercial for that new reality show The Biggest Loser and there was a lady standing on the scale who weighed 220lbs. I was like...um "Brian does she look heavier than I do?" and he said..."Yeah! By about 40lbs or more." I weigh 10lbs more than she does. I guess I am glad I have a healthy body image at this weight even though I am not HAPPY being this weight but I don't want to be thinking that I look GOOD in a tight shirt when I have fat hanging out all over like some of those chicks on Jerry SPringer.. hehe I don't want my kids taking me on some show saying..."MY momma wears tight clothes and embarrasses me!" I prefer to wear clothes that are fitting without showing TOO much. I have curves and I like to show them off. I think nothing is less flattering on a plus size woman than big bulky clothes that look like sacks. Unfortunately there are too many clothes out there that are shaped just like that. Makes it hard to find good shaped clothes that aren't too tight! Yay! Old Navy just put in a plus size line! Hmm I digress...such goes my mind....That's the curse of a creative mind I suppose...
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