Posted by sexylexy on March 4, 2004, at 18:10:48
In reply to Re: Sexylexy...How are you? » sexylexy, posted by want info on March 4, 2004, at 15:59:01
Hey Want Info (Im not sure of your name!)
I think we probably are a lot a like. I am 24 year old female. I have never had a problem with depression infact, I was always called the "strong one" when going though hard situations. I started taking Allese birth control pill and found myself becoming really sad. The summer was ending and I knew I would have to go back to Graduate school away from my friends, family and boyfriend. I continued to become sad and figured it was homesickness. I finally went home and the depression actually got worse because I expected it to be better. I was really irrational, almost broke up with my boyfriend because I thought that he was making me depressed. I thought about quiting school everything. I cried infront of my parents for the first time in yeaaaaaaaaaars. We have no history of depression so it made it really hard for them to understand. Finally, my dad suggeted I stopped the b/c pill because depression is a uncommon side effect. It was like with in two days I was back to my old self, happy as ever. I had this feeling for a little over a week then unexpectedly a friend died. I was all alone in this strange city when I wanted to be anywhere else. I started feeling sad then became so anxious that I would become depressed again. I went to the Dr. who gave me wellbutrin for my anxiety.. he must have graduated from the med school of stupidity. So I took one wellbutrin and shook in my bed for 24 hours. I then flew home, and was able to recover to about my old self. I was pretty good for about 3 weeks then got into a huge fight with my boyfriend. The sadness came back with lead this time to paralizying anxiety. I could not function b/c I was so anxious. At this point I started taking Zoloft which made my depression much worse. I stayed on for 3 weeks and was sooooo miserable. I then got on lexapro and started feeling improvement. I am doing ok now... just wanting to get the "me" I so loved back. I feel like I will win the war but am loosing a lot of battles in the mean time Mainly I have 0 self confidence, no pride in my many accomplishments and a higher sensitivity. I would love to hear your story, thanks for the note and support! God Bless!
LexyPS. PMDD is when about ten days before your period, you become a sad/anxious ball of hormones and it last till you start. It is one of the lovely things I have gotten from a stupid birth control pill !
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