Posted by lil' jimi on September 25, 2003, at 12:19:16
In reply to Day 19, posted by Peter on September 24, 2003, at 18:41:34
hey threre, Peter,
> Day 19 and I'm really not doing so well. Just very depressed and anxious. I don't understand this lex. Every other SSRI started working for me by the 2nd week. I don't mean to sound so impatient, but I'm just so sick of this waiting and not knowing if it will kick in at some point, or if I'm just a non-responder. And just thinking about the possibility that I won't respond at all to the lex gives me tons more anxiety and depression; I start feeling hopeless, since I've tried every med out there. >
ah, the lexapro users' defintion of eternity:
... Waiting For the Benefits to Kick In ...
... ... you have many a fellow sufferer who is on that train or has had that looooonnnnggg ride ...
... sorry thing are going so rough there ...
... lex is more than a little different than the other ssris, even different than it's mother, celexa ...> And then I start thinking about how awful it will be to have to withdraw from yet another pile of medications and put my body through all that again (I've been hopping from one 'cocktail' to the next for about 8 years). >
i am so sorry to read that your suffering this neurochemical/pharmacological juggling act for so long ... how horrible for you ...
... ... sometimes, anticipating possible misery can be as bad that the suffering, if it comes at all ... try to hang in there ...> I'm on vacation with my family, and I can't be pleasant around them, no matter how much I try. I think about what I'll do when I go back home to NY, and I feel hopeless. I'm a musician, but, because the majority of the last few years of my life has been spent trying to find ways to find relief from depression/anxiety, the social and occupational sides of my life have gone way downhill. I can't perform or compose anymore because of my mental illness; I've lost touch with all my friends. When is this going to end; I hate to sound so self-pitiesh and melodramatic, but when will I get my life back? >
getting lives back is hard work, but one step at a time here ... ... got to get those neurotransmitters to give you a chance ... they've let you down and have fought off your ADs to keep you there ... ... you try to take care of yourself while your neurochemistry heals up ...
> Now I feel guilty for not being grateful for all that I do have, like a supporting family, a roof over my head, etc. But, you know, it's so hard to be thankful when depression/anxiety are weighing you down. I'm sure you all can relate. I'm sorry for babbling on, but I just needed to vent. It's all so frustrating. >
aye, relate we do ... ... the guilt i feel from being depressed is as bad as the depression .... i have so much to help me ... but their love can't repair my neurotransmitters ... ... yet anyway ...
i live in austin ... ... we have a lot of muscians here ... ... write a song about lexapro ... maybe ?
("Oooo, I got those Lexaprooo Blooooo-zzzz , babayyy..... i got 'em baaaad, momma .... ")
maybe not ...
take care ,
~ jimp.s. ... lex will try to dehydrate you ....
... ... DO NOT LET IT !!
... like, if you even feel like you Might get thristy ? ... drink a quart of water ... try drinking as much water as possible ... see how it makes your lex feel ..
... then give us a report. please ?~ j
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