Posted by mercedes on July 15, 2003, at 17:21:17
In reply to Re: *sigh* » mercedes, posted by Tiger's Dad on July 14, 2003, at 18:28:10
Hi again. I've included part of your comment only because I have the same problem but not as long as you have. I'm an unemployed accountant and when I read my resume', it sounds impressive however I doubt that I can do the things I used to do., ie financial analysis, budget preparation (the other day I couln't even balance my own check book, took me 3 days - HA!)
I've been in the accounting field for 30 years and feel very inadeqate, stupid mostly. Is it the medications that have made my brain worthless or is it all those attacks I've been having? I ask myself this all the time.I'd like to think positive though. I am going to get better. I have to beleive that. I was smart and will be smart again. Being out of work and with social anxiety keeps us from communicating with our peers. When I talk with some of my ex co-worker freinds I feel my intellegence comes back when we talk about our work, what we used to do. It's funny that I CAN remember supplier's names, a yr we had 17 million in profits,etc. when we talk, yet I can't memeber what I did yesterday or even this morning.....sound familiar? Keep on trucking okay. It will get better for all of us soon.
MercedesExerpt... posted by Tigersdad:
I've felt that my condition has crippled me and left me mostly non-functional during my entire working life, but I've received regular, healthy raises and bonuses... at least until I lost my job in February 2002 (two weeks after I bought my new house yet and a month after my beloved 10yo cat Ed died). Here I am 16 months later, still an unemployed software engineer living off what's left of my savings. I've come to the realization that a significant part of the difficulty I've had finding a new job stems from my fear of being unable to perform and this has been my primary motivation in seeking help again.
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