Posted by Shanti on March 20, 2002, at 13:48:45
In reply to Re: Anyone had success on Effexor XR? » Allen F., posted by Reneeb on March 20, 2002, at 12:26:52
> > I have been withdrawing, slowly, from Effexor and am tired. Energy level is low. Emotionally I am exhausted, not so much by "depression" but by all that has been going on. I am tired as being defined by "depression." Seems all the books I read, doctors I see, or people I talk to are in some way or another related to the subject. I also have found that its an easy thing to blame, rather than others taking responsibity for their own actions. "He's just depressed" ... when, no I am not, I just don't like their behavior, but I have been labled with the diagnoses.
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> > Well, have written to much. Didn't mean to bend your ear so much.
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> Hi Allen, you can never write to much. I understand about the effexor since I am also weaning myself off it as we speak. I am doing it a little slower than most people here, but I couldn't stand the side effects. I also understand about labels and people not taking responsiblity for their actions. Hey, just remember you are not alone and there are many of us here that really do know what you are feeling.
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> Just keep posting your feelings. I believe it helps.
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> Take care,
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> ReneeHi Allen
this is shanti i will listen (you talked about talking too much - have you seen any of my posts haha!!)
"he's just depressed" - how many times have we heard that? for me most of my life and if not depressed, then sad, so on and so on.
you are right it's because we don't like what they are doing to us and maybe "in this state" (for me anyway) is when i tell it like it is in a matter of fact way instead of being the kind loving person that i usually am (i also get that it is PMS because it happens at that time)
yesterday and today and maybe 2-3 more days will be like this. i have been thinking about how to describe so here i go - everything in my body feels 100 times more attund to EVERYTHING about me and the world around me?
it used to make me very sick (hence cramps, nausea, etc) but with a lot of work and still (this is my next step writing about it) going through it i know i may never cure myself but i can certainly integrate it into my life as a positive rather than a negative.
going back to feeling attund - my emotions are uncontrolable - electricity?? so i pray as i go through it because for some reason i have been chosen to experience it and therefore i will, but, instead of with the unloving heart i had about it (my "sickness") i am going to chose the loving heart.
i once read that you must experience good to know bad think about it happy to know sad, success to know poverty (just reverse everything) it depends on how you look at life i guess
i would like to say one thing about the friends i have here at this post:
in here we can say and feel anything we want because we will not see the reaction from the person on the other side reading this message therefore we do not have to experience the feeling of being weird, off centre, crazy, depressed, what ever else the "perfect society" calls it but in here if the recepient doesn't like what we expressed it's ok they can choose to not follow up and maybe meet someone else they feel better connected to.
i would like to touch back on the topic about " people taking responsibility for themselves" is it because we are so vulnerable that they lay their shit on us (but we do allow it becasue we do have the choice to allow it or not - very hard to get at but can be done!)
becasue i get so easily caught up in others shit by being the peacemaker and before you know it they are after me.
before i go on i want to offer another opinion about the process of healing from my own experience........
when i find something that will help "fix me" as the "perfect ones call it" i believe there not fixer uppers but opportunities to learn about something new
i go at it at 300% and everything is peachy keen and bang - without seeing it coming, my "being" changes (shall we call it instead of DP!) and wham i go backwards what seems like 3000% the times i was the time before so go slowly my friends, as they say "good things come to those who wait" and may i add on "we are never given anything until we are truly ready" and for us we think that is being cured of whatever it is this thing is called.........
peace
your friend
shanti
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