Posted by JenStar on October 5, 2005, at 1:34:36 [reposted on October 5, 2005, at 22:17:38 | original URL]
hi all,
I've been on Lexapro for a while now, 20 mg/day, and I decided I wanted to cut back to 10 mg/day on my way down to zero. I wanted to do this to prove to myself I could "do it" without meds, and also because I want to be med free if I can.But as I've been slowly cutting back, my anxiety is growing. In the past I've obsessed about having diseases that I end up not having, and lately, back on 10 mg/day, I'm starting to think about illnesses again and worrying that I have them. I'm worried about heart issues again. I'm worried about MS again. I'm not sleeping well. I felt panicky the other day. And above all, I feel failure b/c I can't do this.
Should I go back up to 20 mg/day? I feel like having a Xanax to help me relax right now, but I don't want to. I've been able to do w/out a X. for 3 months now and I wanted NOT to take one again! But right now, all I can think about is the power of that tiny little pill. Help.
I hate feeling anxious.
Should I go back to 20 mg/day and retry later to cut back? I hate this feeling!I need to travel this weekend, and I absolutely DON'T want to be panicky on my trip! Maybe I should just go back up to 20 mg/day and hope I get back to "normal" before the weekend!
aaarrrgggh..
thanks for any advice! I need advice.
JenStar
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