Posted by wishingstar on October 4, 2006, at 12:43:05
... and then, she was a student no more.
I'm dropping out of grad school. At least I think I am. I have a semester and a half left to finish my masters degree.. which doesnt seem like a lot at all, but that includes an entire masters thesis, along with a lot of other things.. its quite a lot.
I havent been happy in this program since I started a year ago. It's not really in my interests (it's research psych, while I want to do therapy). I had considered dropping out before, but I just couldnt allow myself. Then my T (Laurie) suggested it and it somehow felt like I have permission now. Her saying it somehow is letting me allow myself to do it.
My advisor is understandly not thrilled. I am going to take a mental health withdrawl (since I was just in the hospital, itll be easy). That means that itll be easy to return should I want to in the next year or so, but I doubt I will.
In one way, the relief is tremendous. But in another, this is very scary. I'm only 23 years old and took no time off between high school, college, and grad school, so I havent been out of school since I was 5 years old. Very scary.
I'm trying to decide whether to go ahead and apply to the grad programs I WANT to be in for next fall, or take an extra year inbetween. I want to do it next fall, but I also want to have a strong enough application that I'll get accepted to good schools. My self-worth is very dependent on that for me... which I know I need to change.
I hope this is the right decision.
poster:wishingstar
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