Posted by michellemybell on November 4, 2005, at 6:20:49
First of all, hello to everybody.
I noticed that no one has posted recently-maybe because its midterm times (mine are over thank goodness).
I am a first year grad student in an msw social work program. My B.A is in psych and I think I would like a psych doctoral program much better, but I was too afraid to because I knew I'd have to defend my dissertation one day! I think grad school is so-so as far as socially. I dont think I see things the same way they do. I dont usually feel this way, but I dont think they are that bright either--its just sad. sad, that is a feeling i know too well. I got an A on my first midterm, but the second one, i was so depressed, that i didnt even do it the morning it was due, let alone during the 2 weeks i had to do it. I know procrastination is so common, but i really feel its depression, because when i am not depressed i manage to pull out a great paper even if its the night before. Of the few friends I have (im liked but shy) they dont seem to understand what its like to be depressed, or they tell me that there is no reason for me to be depressed and that i should just get with it. I really resent them for that, but i know its hard to know what depression is like when you dont have it, alot of people think those who are depressed are just lazy or something and its an excuse. It pisses me off that people think I'd spend most of the day in bed crying or just numb simply because im lazy?! Does anyone else experiences any of this--with school or friends? Or is it just me? I dont know why, but I always say grad students as people who get everything done always--like midterms for that matter. Luckily my professor gave me an extension because he says he can tell im a good student and am not making excuses..nice guy! So I still dont know why im so depressed though, didnt sleep at all tonight..so, so lonely. Anyway, if anyone out there came across this and got through this post and can relate or anything I'd like to hear :)
poster:michellemybell
thread:575271
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