Posted by alexandra_k on September 9, 2020, at 1:07:49
In reply to The Bizarre, posted by alexandra_k on September 9, 2020, at 0:37:23
It's because of the whole 'fan-boy' aspect or element.
Like how when I was at Salmond College they move in a couple people who were accepted to the Medical Programme. I don't know. Thinking that I would be content with meeting people who had been accepted and living things vicariously through them.
There's that kind of an element or aspect to it that I find really squeemish / repulsive. I don't want to marry a Doctor. I don't want to hear all about other people's experiences in Medical School or hear all about other people's experiences seeing patients or whatever. I don't want to live it vicariously by getting as close to Doctors as I can by being a patient.
I just...
Don't get these people, at all...
It doesn't register. It makes no sense...
I can look after myself better than they can look after me...
I don't know what to say... Do I want to stay? Not if it means being under their thumb.
What has NZL done for me / made me? It wants to view me as a Psychiatric Patient who is required to live in an institution only. Riiiiiiiiiiiiight. Someone who is delusional about enrolling at University Level... Delusional about being able to do Research...
It's a swampy swamp swamp swamp...
I wish I could help but, uh, they kinda tied me up so I couldn't. Yeah. Are we having fun, yet? I think some people really really really really are. Yeah.
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