Posted by alexandra_k on March 20, 2015, at 20:25:45
In reply to Re: i think 'suits' got better, posted by alexandra_k on March 6, 2015, at 19:27:41
End of week three... Only two weeks until study break!
Things were starting to feel almost routine and then I got hit with the sickness. Lots of people sick in week two... I was starting to feel all triumphant that I'd managed to fend it off, then got hit pretty bad. Took two days out just sleeping... Damn... Don't have time for this... Cold and flu tablets... 2,000 word essay this weekend and some chemistry... Still have 2 lecture hours to catch up on (online viewable thank god) Better be alright for 6 hour lab day on Monday...
Most of the people are really young. I mean... Really, very. Overheard conversations are mostly about people trying to fit in with the herd. Most people really do only seem to go to sit with their friends. The people who are there earliest / who are first in line are the people who thrive in being surrounded by people people people all the time.
You... Sort of can start to pick people. Be like 'that one doesn't have a hope' and 'that one might get in'. It is weird... But it is largely about focus. Some people seem to thrive on something like trauma bonding, too. So lots of talk that is about upsetting people (a sort of feigned upset). Lots of worried gossip about how hard whatever test is meant to be or chinese rumours style gossip about how the lecturers have changed a date on something or... People spend hours talking about absolutely nothing. Have set up class facebook pages for it...
There are people waiting more in the wings... Biding their time... It lights a fire up under your *ss, that's for sure. Please oh please oh please oh please let me make it into med. Please oh please oh please oh please oh please don't make me wait behind with all these kids who never had a hope...
The group work thing is painful. People in the group who want to take up the groups time telling everyone why they thought the wrong answer was the right answer. People more focused on being the centre of attention than anything else. Or people more focused on getting their way than on the group achieving the group objectives. I just can't quite believe what these people are thinking... If we really were making a decision about patient care or something... Not thinking. Unthinking. Happy puppies making happy puppy noises...
I'm not very happy with the standard of the social science teaching that we have... Woffly and vague and all over the place. The sort of thing that gives social science stuff a bad name. Making first years write a 2,000 word essay when typically first years would only write a 1,500 essay. Giving them a complicated freaking question with about 9 parts to it instead of a simple question with 3 parts. Just... A whole bunch of stuff to make things unnecessarily confusing (seems to me). Wasting time... I think partly it is about lazy teaching (e.g., failing to give past years tests as practice because they are too lazy to construct new ones and instead recycle). Partly it is about... General ineptitude. You can't make things clear for others if you don't have things clear for yourself.
Bio is ticking along... Chem... I think I'm going to be okay... They gave me a nice back corner and the demonstrator is terrific. Sort of quiet and... I resonate with him, somehow. And they have him and another guy (who is also pretty good) doing extra help sessions throughout the semester and they don't seem terribly well attended so... I think I'm going to be okay for chem. I'm also... Thriving on the bustliness of it all. Into week 2... Once my sleep-wake got into a routine I was thriving on it all. Getting back after a long day feeling refreshed and anxious to review. It is good for me... I thought it would be...
I'm glad that I'm happy enough by myself. Can just turn up my headphones and literally ignore all the gossip / chatter that there is. I have my wallplanner with all my assessment dates and I have my assessment sheets for what tasks etc we are meant to be doing. The lecturers send out emails (like 4 per day) about various things... I have no time for gossip... No need for it. No need for people going on about how much work there is blah blah blah blah blah...
People say your biggest enemy is yourself but I really think... I've learned to look after myself pretty good. Actually... My biggest enemy is other people. Other people who will waste all the time there freaking is and then some.
Sigh.
Getting there. Better be. Holy crap.
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