Posted by alexandra_k on June 20, 2014, at 20:58:22
In reply to Re: refocus..., posted by alexandra_k on June 19, 2014, at 23:50:39
chemistry is just... too much, really. the idea seems to be to test the chemistry knowledge by requiring you to apply different / novel mathematical procedures to it... and i don't have any mathematical knowledge except for what i need to kludge together in order to solve past problems... and that doesn't seem to be helping me solve other ones so... i'm just kind of... overwhelmed by it all, really. and of course... they told me so.
i don't suppose it matters. all that mattered was organic... and i got some confidence with that, yeah. not sure how i'll do on that in the exam... just feeling... a bit burned out by it all, really. started really enjoying reading again... for the first time since... well... since my very first year at uni as an undergrad... all the way back when i was majoring in english. i mean... waking up at 3am and reading a couple chapters...
started reading a bit of animal biology, too. just to remind myself... that things will come right. that i will turn out to be good at something. that i know how to study for that. most of it is... seems to be a fairly thin attempt to disguise a human biology course. i mean... there are token bits about how this and that animal does this and that... but mostly... they actually use humans as the example case. so we do tissue types and organ systems. a little comparative... but basically... a primer for next year, indeed. and of course... i've done HAPS already for sports science... more musculo-skeletal than we'll do... stuff on neural and muscular tissue... cardio-respiratory system (the sports people wanted to call it)... i know i'm good at that stuff... and digestion, too. nutrition... of course.
it was odd, though... reading some of the cell stuff. different things seemed... salient. meant something to me. stuff on surface area of cells and diffusion and... well... i have learned a lot in chemistry after all. and conceptually... it is very interesting, indeed. it is just... well... designed for kids with years and years of science and math behind them... and for me... it is just all a bit too much.
i feel... hurty. it isn't just me... i don't understand why community mental health receptionists / nurses are... some of the people with the poorest communication skills that there are... i mean... how did that get to be? is it managers? that the people making the hiring decisions don't have to work with them? that the whole point is to hire people who most people will... quietly run the hell away from? is that the idea?
i'm so... confused.
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