Posted by rjlockhart37 on December 18, 2013, at 19:44:05
applied for help from being disablied when i was 18 from addiction, and other issues, i just don't get it, they have TONS of psych exams, you know this leaves me in the ruins of shiiity places.....no one knows my pain, i wish i could be asleep along time and never wake up, not because of this stupid disability thing, but its my whole life, i truely want to cry about feeling i can't control things, the rejection, the isolation i could of spent with people to help my pain, it's so much pain inside me, i can't describe it, it's more than just having a little cry, i want to scream for hours.
God....i wrote all this stuff about teenage talk, and then i write this about myself, they would think im crazy....but in a reaction to that, i can't just sit and suffer and not do anything, get out and do something about it, other day i was shaving and i looked at the razor and thought about my wrists for second.... but also knowing i am in school, and looked at my wallet and told myself to put money it, no im getting married and i will have a good career....so don't worry about that
well....enough with boohoo stuff, ill get through it, but who evver reads this you know about my inner feelings of pain....don't worry about me, i don't want a bunch of people to think sorry for me.....that gets someone no where....it's a waste of time....i just had to ventthank you for reading...
r
not a scholar but understand distress.....
"unheard pain, is the told through good company"
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