Posted by emmanuel98 on September 10, 2010, at 20:27:09
In reply to Re: My Story, posted by Lil'Deb on September 10, 2010, at 19:35:06
I thought I posted this earlier, but apparently it never showed up. I found this site after googling -- I love my therapist. I was so caught up in transference love and didn't know how to handle it. This site came up and so did guidetopsychology.com, which I found very helpful. Initially, I just visited the psychology thread to see what others said about experiences in therapy, which I found overwhelming.
Then I fell into a severe depression and went through trial after trial of meds. The one's that helped me (atypical anti-psychotics) also made me gain so much weight it was frightening and depressing. I started reading to medication thread to see what other people had experienced with meds. Then I was started on parnate and read the medication site and asked about other's experience with parnate and MAOI's. I am now stable on parnate and perphnazine (an older anti-psychotic that doesn't case weight gain). I have no real side effects except for insomnia from the parnate, for which I take trazadone and ativan at bedtime.
The psychology issues are still with me though. I am terrified of being alone, despite having created a life and career for myself where I am often alone. I tried ending therapy with my T of five years, then ended up coming back five months later because I couldn't bear not seeing him. We are now trying to cut back again to every other week. I am seeing him mostly for supportive therapy. We don't have a lot of exploratory work to do anymore. Over five years, we explored and I came to terms with my f***ked up childhood and adolescence. Now I see a CBT/DBT therapist and most of the work of therapy has shifted over to her. I just am so attached to my T that I have a hard time ending or even imagining not seeing him.
I've found this site to be very interesting and supportive. There's almost no flaming and when there is, Dr. Bob stops it immediately.
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