Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 6, 2010, at 20:53:05
In reply to Re: What do you do after rejection?, posted by emmanuel98 on January 5, 2010, at 23:39:01
What the 360 outlook for me, see I did abuse stimulants because it promoted mental alertness while going through some times that I just had difficulty doing, they did this back in WW2, You will be suprised that alot of people do take stimulants, it's just not out and known because I "propagandaized" my abuse for attention. Now, people take antidepressants almost everyday and frankly I think it's a "cosmetic addiction" because there are some who cannot function with out and antidepressants, back in the old day's people did get through times with no DRUGS [excuse me] and lived a life. Does this mean that I'm addicted to Prozac, Wellbutrin, Xanax XR, and other medications? It's medication, but DEXEDRINE and ADDERALL are known for abuse, because "why?" it's speed! and alot people take these medications and don't have a problem with it. You know, at work people just "pop" adderall like it's "candy" to keep them peppy, and drink EXPRESSO's with it. That's the same thing that happened back in the 1950's when they opened up Benzedrine inhalers in their coffee for a boost for the day. So, don't alway's think about "speed" in this case....I know alot of people that you could judge besides me, that have had worse problems than this. And I don't take it anymore, what's happening..I'm getting a scan done and finished, my doctor is waiting for the results if 'stimulant' medication is needed because of areas in the brain.
I do want to say, it just "frustrates", people just say it's speed, yes it is speed....but amphetamine correct's something that isnt stimulated, So an example is "coffee" or "wellbutrin" in replacement of a stimulant which is usally used in these cases, and I do take Wellbutrin, yet it doesnt correct forgetfulness, clumsiness, alot of ADD things, but there are some people that are against stimulants because they are amphetamines.
My brother has a american dream life, the only thing I just want to do...is be "a brother" but there are many things that are looked down on me, choices I made, then there are "mental" difficulties that I cannot help, I still have problems socializing and having friends, and I'm in psychological agony everyday, and I admit I cannot have a normal life.
Stimulants improve concentration and the ability to "socialize" normal with out feeling like some "dimwit". Where I went wrong, high amounts of amphetamines cause you to be a "superhuman" it's like running in 5th gear when you should be in 2nd gear. My doctor just has to have my mother's approval for this, because I told my mom "trust" envolved, she has moniter dexedrine or adderall because it's just prone for abuse, and I blew it in the past.
Anyways, back to my brother...I used to have a good relationship and had fun times, what happened is I got older and I didnt change like I was suppost to, it's a developmental disorder, and really I hate it. You have this "mentor" like image when your little, but when you get older sometimes your mentor's don't care for you. What I did was "ran away" because I just could not handle the demands that where asked, and I thought I would be better, feeling proud..we'll all that went down the drain, and came to nothing. My mother cares for me, yet I know that this is not normal, but just the love that she show's is something good, and she is the main one that will say "yes" or "no" to the doctor because she just known's what truely needs to be done, and I learned it's going to be that way until I can move out and be independent, the situation is I can't "hold" a job, without being treated with medication [which is stimulants] Now, I know that has "addict" written all over that message, I just have to tell the truth, I just cannot function well, and if you still think it's addict behavior, I give up. But I wrote these things to show you the overview I see.
Thanks for your post
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