Posted by fayeroe on April 16, 2009, at 9:12:57
In reply to Re: I really miss Fayeroe » fayeroe, posted by Sigismund on April 16, 2009, at 2:46:56
I am struggling with stuffing my feelings now. It causes a stomachache.
The greatest gift that I could have would be for someone to hug me and let me cry as long and as loud as I need to.
I had to quit typing and feed a cat and while doing that I thought of how I was brought up concerning animals. I lived on an isolated ranch in Oklahoma and I am 8 years younger than the nearest sibling. So my playmates were dogs and horses.
Our dogs were very valuable to our lifestyle. We had cow dogs and hunting dogs that worked almost every day. I learned to respect and admire them for their work as I depended upon them for friendship.
I depended upon Fayeroe. She was here every day and night and was fully integrated into almost every part of my life. I realize now that I rarely did anything that didn't include her.
I am not the only one who has a hard time grieving alone. I am sure that the online memorial site wouldn't be half as large as it is if people weren't searching for someone to listen and talk to them. At least half of those men and women say that people don't take them seriously IRL.
Thank you both. I just checked outside and the flowers that are planted on her grave are looking great today. I also planted corn and potatoes. Everything is up. Certainly the building and tending of her little garden has helped me. It brings more happiness than pain now. At first it was really hard to be there with her.
I try to stay busy. Thanks for listening and talking to me. Oftimes this is what is needed most.. .......xoxox Pat
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