Posted by no_rose_garden on November 2, 2008, at 1:47:23
I tried to go to bed tonight like I usually do. I felt ok today, but when i got to bed, I started thinking and couldn't fall asleep...Thinking many sad things and bad ways to fix the sad things. Then I thought of my past counselors that I wish would hold me and comfort me and tell me I'm ok. Then I think about trying out another new T and I can't..I imagine talking to him, then I imagine handing him a check, and that second act seems to make everything we would have talked about meaningless. So then I think about the counselors again and know it can't happen, so I have to think about the bad things again but that's too complicated because I can't hurt anyone. There's no safe way out.
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