Posted by riot on August 29, 2008, at 16:41:24
I am very happy to have found this community. I am desperate for answers and hope.
I am a 21 year old girl who has fought depression for my entire life. I am a product of two mentally ill people. My mother is borderline, bipolar, type 2 depression, anorexic, bulemic and suffers with substance abuse. My father has severe anxiety and depression.Growing up in such environment greatly affected me and still does. Unlinke my parents I am desperate to break this cycle.
I recently moved out of their home for the last time. I got off all the substances I was using except marijuana. Entered therapy and started exercising. However here I am 4 months later. I was diagnosed as having major reoccuring depression, a mild bpd, ptsd, and an addictive personality.
I've been on countless combinations of scripts, but nothing has helped (even without other drugs in my system).
After another bout of serious depression and mood swings I have entered myself into a 28 day crisis stabilization program. I am being seen 2x a week by a therapist and psychiatrist. We are hoping to get my medication worked out.
But I feel so hopeless. Depression has taken over my life again. I do not want to continue with these patterns forever. I am desperate for change. And I just fear that I am doomed to lose this battle and continue to lose this fight forever.
I am seeking advice and encouragement.
Thanks
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